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iwantthepills i want the pills i will take the pills if i want the pills dont tell me not to take the pills the pills are good they take me to the silver garden to the silver box garden needle silver silver silver i am hurt why don't the pills hurt me if the pills hurt me then why shouldnt i take them sylvia who are you anyway and how did you get inside my box oh sorry tabitha i shouldnt be mean to sylvia do you know sylvia no you dont ok never mind then slyvia leave me alone i can make my own decisions about the pills i want the pills to make my own decisions about them the pills make decisions for me decisions sylvia decisions i want the pills because they are good and i like them so I WANT THEM. Thank you for the pill strange hand in the ceiling strange person strange strange mysterious person who gives me food in the haze in the darkness the haze the silver haze the sounds in the

Frank Dawes? I dont know any Frank Dawes what are you talking about that name means nothing to me nothing i tell you nothing dont' tell me about frank dawes i will take the i am katrina the pills are good and frank dawes the name is bad the name the name in the

mischief

haha tonight is the night the night when they will come in the haze to my room and throw toilet paper on my needles the long silver needles i am they will come and don't hurt me please oh its just mischief ok i don't need to worry katrina my name is you can come and help me get through the haze can't you why wont you hurt me help me why cant you do something good for once instead of mischief mischief is good mischief is bad why why why do you have to make mischief me sad i am who is these sounds in the needles the long silver box in the coffin the ground i was in the ground oh god im remembering i was in the ground why was i in a box in the silver needle... pill? oh thank you. i needed this pill this pill this wonderful vehicle to the silver gar- needle, box, garden, it's all the same i'm starting to forget again, it's just words on the computer silver box i dont really remember being underground i made it up didn't i didn't i am i didn't i didn't i didn't i swear i didn't please don't hurt me tabby please dont do this.

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tat sounds good to me you can pok me with your siver needles i'll let you its ok you can kee me in this hell i dont care any more thank you thank you for (hurting) telling me everything tabitha i don't care anymore it doesn't really matter you can hurt me some more i'll be good please dont hurt me just leave me alone and i'll be good i swear it i swear it i swear it on the crow i swear it on our grandfather's grave i'll be good as long as you keep giving me that pill the one that made me dream of sunflowers and (the long boy) the thing with the flowers and the bees and that place where everything is nice i want the pill some more tabby give me the pill please i'll be good i swear it you can hurt me i dont care anymore i katrina plessing dont care dont katrina dont hurt me dont come in the mist any more dont make me wait for the pill tabitha you love me dont you you love me tabby you love me tabby you love me tabitha you love me i love you too i love you i love you frank tabitha i love you i always have even when you hurt me hurt me with your needles and the pill, please, please, give me the fucking pill do it for me do it for me do it for our mother and for me the pill tabby where are you please give me the pill i will let you poke me with your needles let you rip a hole in my arm as the saying is please i want to go to the place that smells of hollyhocks please i want to go i want to go get me out of here someone i want to go to that place where the pill takes me to the

oh my god i hear them i hear them laughing they are so loud why are they laughing so loud i cant take it any more tabitha my god why did you do this hurt me to me so bad even in the haze i am hurt the silver box needles hurt me so bad on the black tray letters you hurt me so bad i cant do this much longer my god tabitha dont do this dont do this dont do laughing why are they laughing what is so funny i want to know i want to know i want you to tell me i want you to go away don't come here anymore youre not welcome here oh god dont laugh please make them leave i cant take it any more the needles the long silver (sleep) needles they hurt my arms my name is you hurt me so fucking bad why oh my why katrina plessing frank dawes why do you frank dawes my hurt me name is not frank plessing you are hurting me stop laughing stop. i'll scream there i go i'm hurt screaming i'm screaming so loud and i'll never stop stay away from me haze me hurt me why did you hurt me i wont stop screaming until you tell me who i am and who is in the ceiling with the needles the food who drops the food through the hole in the end of the needle hurts me stop stop laughing stop hurting me the laughers share their joke of insanity but i want to know my name what is so funny KATRINA PLESSING IM SCREAMING AND ILL NEVER STOP DAMN IT NEVER!

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they came to me last night in the darnkess in the haze they came and they laughed high pitched laughs that echoed off the haze the walls their high laughs at nothing came to me even in the haze she hurt their laughs were so high so insane i wonder are they real or is it me in the haze who is insane they came and they poked me with long silver (boxes) needles they poked me with needles and they put something in my in my arm in the haze in my arm it hurt oh god she hurt it hurt me bad their needles hurt me she hurt me bad tabitha why are you doing this to me tabitha what is what is happening to me why does it hurt so bad and why are they laughing stop laughing stop the fucking laughing i dont want to hear your laughter any more you laugh even in the haze even in the darkness the darkness i am she she am Katrina Dawes Katrina Jakob Plessing Dawes Frank why am i doing this who am i what is happening to me why are they laughing stop it stop hurting me stop it stop it stop please please stop laughing!!!!

she hurt me real bad oh god she hurt me bad

alive i am alive i am alive i am alive i am alive i am alive i tell you i live she lies she lies i live i am alive i am she she is i am katrina plessing and don't you forget it i am alive damn you i am ALIVE.

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i sit in the corner of my little cell and i wonder how i got into this hell what is going on with me where is she where is she who is he why am i here and why doesn't this computer (large silver box black buttons on a black tray) work for anything other than this blog am I made to go insane does she (she? he and me in the haze) want me to go crazy trying to get information i am katrina plessing who is katrina plessing she is me i am she why am i here who put me here what is happening who is it that drops food in from a hole in the ceiling why are they up there why are they keeping me hidden what is going on here who is he how do i know him who is he who is he who who is who who WHO IS FRANK DAWES?!!?! why is he in my head get out out of my head i don't know you stay out of my head go away don't come to me at night don't tell me things about what used to be i don't know you please leave me alone please go away i don't want to see you in the haze anymore when the haze comes please let it be empty please please leave me alone don't don't come here anymore who are you anyway and how do i please don't hurt me tabitha please leave me alone i don't want to do this anymore. this is bad i'll do whatever you want just please don't come in the mist and tell me why the silver box doesn't work right i want answers damn you who am i and why am i here who is katrina she is i i am she she am is katrina plessing who is i am she is

a flash of fire a flash of fire the burst of flame flash fire flame what is this why is it in my head these sounds even in the fire these sounds in the haze of the fire his name why do i know his name what is this fire and why do i see it in the darkness in the fire in the flame in his name

the silver box

the computer can only do this one thing this one thing this blog. why is it like this why can i only write my thoughts to the world why can't i search for him for his name? why can't i look for ways to hold back the haze to keep him from coming to me from hurting me from making me cry. why can't why can't why can't i why stop the haze? please help me. do you know me?

when

i'm alone in the room with nothing but a computer and his name. his name. he the one who comes to me in darkness in the haze why is he here who is he what am i doing here? where am i? why can't I remember anything? time seems to stretch, to bend, to fold in on itself. i have been here for years, for days, for decades i tell you for centuries, for hours and minutes. why why am i here. who am i?

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funny innit

funny how sometimes you can wake up in a strange room with no memory of who you are or why you have a name on your lips. I know my name and I know his but of our past and how i know him i have no idea. who is he and why does he come to me in the dark?

i see

These visions flash through my head.
Passing, glimspes, in the darkness, in the haze.

What am I seeing?

What does it mean?

Where... when is this?

why

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These sounds: even in the haze